Earl Grey Tea

29 June, 2004
2:52 PM

how can a person fall for and get together with someone when still 'in love' with the partner? its a simple yet complicated case of frienship n love. by right, it shouldn't even be any of my concerns because i'm not involved, but it puzzles me too why i'm so disturbed by it. lots of 'how can(s)', 'what if(s)', 'what the(s)', 'f**k it(s)'...scary yea? exactly! why should i be so disturbed?!?!

anywayz, really glad to hear from mrs black that she's got plans to set aside a couple of years to travel to other countries for social work projects before she finally settles down and start working again. however, i jus hope her id**tic other half starts understanding that dream of hers before its too late. how can you ever condemn the dreams of your loved ones?! A**HOLE!

Not feelin too good.

25 June, 2004
5:14 PM

A relationship takes both hands to clap...but wat about Friendship? If you think that you're good friends with someone, and you assume a mutual feeling towards that, the big question is: does the person really feel the same way?

I guess sometimes, its best not to know..

Feelin stupid.

21 June, 2004
1:36 AM

Had a HUGE party at my place on Saturday, and it was GREAT!!! Really enjoyed myself like SOOOOO MUCH...and i'm actually a HOST! My mom was how sweet to cancel her appointment jus to be around to help me out...*Melts* But its a pretty sad thing that Birdie wasn't around...=( Another time k dude!

Slept till 12+ on Sunday and went out for lunch with Eileen and my sis. As we talked and somehow touched on the MLM topic, i accidentally told my sis that my parents had invested quite abit of money earlier on. Din wanna let her know jus yet cos i thought she'd make lotsa noise and stuff...but i guess its a good thing that she's aware of it now...din get hell from her anyway, so...phew! =) Glad she was so understanding.

Went for some dumpling party with my parents at a CC. They were doing some kinda dance, the kind where the aunties and uncles moved their feet to some quite hip songs, and me and my mom joined in the fun! Haha...damn happening man! (ps Mrs Black: Its the one that we saw at the NTUC chalet event which i din manage to learn.)

Basically a good week end for me. I love my family!!! =)

17 June, 2004
10:55 PM

I had dinner with my secondary school friends, Sheena and Jamie last night. Our dear Birdbrain was supposed to turn up around 7+, but we called her jus before 9 only to find out that she had jus woken up from her wonderful sleep! Haha...but poor her with all her IA and flying around etc...can't wait for it to end by next Friday!!! =) But the night was great, because i learnt alot of things about people, myself, or rather - LIFE.

Life is a choice - happy or sad, rich or poor, simple or complicated...etc etc. There are so many choices, but somehow many of us aren't aware of them. Jus like model 10 yr series answers, we only know of the model lifestyles. Obviously, everyone would want a happy life, but what is our OWN definition of happiness? Lots of us dream about being rich, yet our model lives only allow us to be average earners...so we're fated not to be rich. Another handful of us jus hope to lead a simple life, but sadly, we do not know wat it REALLY TAKES to lead one. In the modern world, there's no such thing as a simple life unless you're rich, sad but true. It is ignorant to think of simplicity the same way the older generations used to think of it because it simply does not apply anymore. Times have really changed...that's why everything is only an illusion to us because we are still seeing things the old model way!

The PROBLEM is that many people aren't aware of the BIGGEST CHOICE they can make in their life - what kind of life do they want to live? Education has only revealed to us a very small yet detailed PIECE of the big picture, and people have thus come to believe that life is jus about that one piece they know. And as a result, their choices have been limited to probably only one - THE MODEL ONE. It jus saddens me that most of my friends frown or even mock at the idea of leading a different kind of life, a life without paychecks, yet one of success, time and financial freedom, happiness, fun activities, trips to all over the world...etc. Its jus too..."unmodel" for them to accept or even think about. But this IS PART OF THE BIG PICTURE TOO! Its jus the prettier one they have not been exposed to. Some even say its "too good to be true". Is it?!

Jus like solving most problems - to find out exactly where the problem lies, we should always look at the big picture first, before zooming in on the details. Most of my friends tend to think that MLM is a "disease", and there are a hundred and one reasons why they wanna stay far away from it, and sometimes, away from me. But what they think they saw isn't the actual picture at all! To me, MLM is jus an OPTION. It is an option that can help me to realise the kind of life that i would want to lead in future. In other words, i CHOSE the kind of future that i want, and therefore i engaged in one of the options that can get me there. But i would like to repeat that MLM is NOT the only option available, and i'm not tryin to "psycho" my friends to join me in this business. I jus really, from the bottom of my heart, hope that they can all at least attempt to uncover more of the picture before deciding wat kind of lives they wanna live, because the model life will only get tougher and tougher each day. As for my MLM...I am simply offering it as ANOTHER OPTION to my friends because its something i believe in, something that i feel has so much more to it than jus the potential to succeed. Take it or not, there's no way i can force it.

I guess it really takes some time to open people's minds...to those who haven't got an idea what i'm saying here, jus take a look at the people, strangers or friends around you and think for yourself. Who do you wanna be in future? Still dunno wat i'm sayin? I highly recommend Robert T. Kiyosaki's Rich Dad Poor Dad. Read it and it'll really OPEN YOUR WORLD. It surely opened mine...

14 June, 2004
12:51 AM

Jus met Cockraoch earlier today...got a treat of peach tea and fries from him, yay! =p twas a pretty awkward outing, but it kinda got a little better after awhile. quite unbelievably, he spent more than 100 bucks in that short 2 hours with me lor!!! lucky me to only spend one fifth of that amount on a book i've been hunting for: Rich Dad Poor Dad's BUSINESS SCHOOL by Robert T. Kiyosaki...=) anyway, he has signed on for the Army, and is bonded for 6 YEARS! gosh, how no life...somemore he's the kind that's so desperate for women...haha.

Can't wait for my bestie to come back...

13 June, 2004
2:58 AM

Spent most of my day out with Rabbit on Thursday...she really can go on and on and on talking about things that do or do not make sense...dunno whether to pity myself or not. Well, it wasn't too bad overall...except that quite sadly, i lost all games of pool to her! =(

Have been feeling really HIGH lately, and i kinda wonder why. My best pal, Birdbrain is away at Indonesia on a biz trip...sighs, really miss her nonsense. Natalie jus left for France too...really wish i could be there, so love to experience another kind of culture...

07 June, 2004
12:49 AM

Just checked my mail, but really am too burnt out to reply...*ironic*. Yeps, but today was a WONDERFUL day!!! Despite me and my friends' lack of sleep, we all managed to get through our training course so energetically! Haha, was really an excellent course, and it so motivates a person to live his or her life to the fullest.

One thing that i learnt from there is that there are 2 kinds of teachings in life: 1-Survival, 2-Success. I guess most of us, actually effectively all of us have been trained only to SURVIVE in this society and nothing more...and true enough, we spend the rest of our lives applying that technique. And at the end of the day? We are stuck with this skill, and if there're any changes to the way things are, we die! (not literally lah)

They say give a man a fish and it will feed him for a day, but teach a man to fish and it will feed him for life. But wat if one day he becomes too sick or old to fish? Who'll feed him? NOBODY!!

For me, I'd want to teach all my family and friends to fish too so that they can also survive on their own. But if for some reason i can't continue fishin, will anyone feed me? I'm most certain...YES! =)

Against the rules (by twisting the meaning of the phrase)? Who said so? Heh...probably the people who are taught the ways of SUCCESS wouldn't think so...=)

03 June, 2004
11:34 PM

i've fallen sick! gosh, din expect myself to fall so easily...

I have a friend, Dawn, who's also my hockey team-mate and coach. Her father jus passed away this early this week. When i went to visit her at the wake, she looked so sunken. I learnt from the 'adult' conversation that her dad had been suffering for 2.5 years from lots of other illnesses before he died of heart attack. I asked her how she and her family were doing, and she told me they may seem ok in the day infront of friends and stuff, but when they get back to their home, it hurts alot because almost everything thing in there reminds them of their father and husband. Sighs...

Losing a loved one is so painful, but yet inevitable. However, i feel that before they leave, we should do wat we can to make their lives more meaningful...i dunno, i guess that's just the way i see it - Treasure the person before he's gone.