Earl Grey Tea

16 April, 2004
2:31 PM

I HATE FLUIDS!!! Its f**kin driving me crazy...the worst subject EVA!!!

Called a friend jus now to arrange to meet up for dinner...she was how shocked because i was neva ever the one who arranged for a dinner or anything. Heh, and so are our other friends...=p

Well, i'm not too sure if wat i'm doing is wise as i'm already quite badly behind my personal exam-study-schedule. BUT! I've decided that i should make a new resolution...I've always hesitated to make a decision because i simply think and worry too much, and i end up not makin a decision at all. So from now, i shall attempt to be more decisive. Whether or not its the right thing to do, I shall jus do it as long as i feel its right...but of cos if it turns out that my choice was a bad one, i shall learn from it. =)

Its funny why i come up with such resolutions in the midst of my exams...too stressed probably? Haha, oh well, maybe stressed to the extent that faggin to me is not a wrong thing to do. I'm even keepin aside a large portion of my already pathetic allowance for it...sometimes at the expense of a proper meal. Well, i really don't wanna spend the time thinkin bout the pros and cons of doing it, and i've jus decided that esp for the exam period, my focus is to study, and i'm gonna do anything to help me with it. This is my "decision"...

By the way, credit to my stupid room-mate, i've learnt something new (yet again). Its not "trend of thought" but "train of thought"...

ps: sorry to disappoint you dude.

12 April, 2004
4:36 PM

Yay! i'm finally able to upload pictures!! haha, guess i'm learning something new everyday... That's my dog by the way, Coke's the name!

4:32 PM

06 April, 2004
5:21 PM

i've got my keypad changed at last!!! heh, feels like a whole new beginning to me...new keyboard, new focus, new attitude...basically a whole new me (i hope).

was faggin outside when i started appreciating my new adidas watch (yet again). it was a gift from my sis...she claimed that it was for me and her to share, but learnt from our friend eileen last night that she actually got it for me. really touched, and the more i looked at it, the more i felt her love for me. kinda got me thinking bout why we always quarrelled so much and got upset with each other so easily. i guess i've really taken her for granted all the while. well, from this moment, i'll use this watch as a reminder to me that my family is the one who loves and cares for me the most, and i'll love them even more for that. come to think about it, life is really short, and you neva know who's gonna leave you next. i'm so gonna treasure the people around me...tho tis still a little embarrasin to tell them how much i love them. but i'm gonna say it through my actions! its my new resolution for the year....haha.

4:05 AM

the weekend that jus passed was very significant to me...i guess i can consider it a turning point in my live. pretty disappointed that i did not get the chance to participate in one of the challenges during the event, but i know that if i did, i am able to get through it.

learnt all about determination, perserverance, focusing on the target, and facing setbacks. mlm is all about a shortcut to a successful business, and hence, the very difficult and bumpy start. its a phase that everyone has to go through before they can get a taste of success. that's what i'm going through now, though its still very early in the tough phase. can foresee lotsa big obstacles along the way, but i'll always tell myself that i'll make it through because my best friend and caiyun and lotsa other people in the team are doing so much to help me. i must not give up, and i definitely WILL NOT allow myself to do so.

had a talk with eileen again over supper. she jus submitted her resignation earlier jus now, and is facing a difficulty explainin to her bosses why she wants to quit. am not sure if twas a good time to bring up mlm, as she din seem to wanna talk about it...but i brought it up anyway. guess it was a wrong move as she wasnt ready to listen to me...prob i was too impatient with her. i wun give up on her though...really feel that she suits this business more than anyone else that i know. brought it up to mrs black too, but i din get a reply. well, guess i can understand the hostillity cos i was once like that too, so sensitive and negative towards this business. its really funny that when u actually understand how the system works, how efficiently the team functions, and how it can help people out, you jus can't understand why people think so badly of it. they have neva even tried it, and it has neva harmed them...why do they treat it like some disease and wanna stay far far away from it?

all i hope now is that the people i approach, esp the people whom i love, do not think that i'm tryin to make money outta them cos that's jus the LAST THING i'd wanna do. its really not me to resort to that, and i don't think i'll ever become that person. guess only my best friend and i can understand that right now. thanks dude for all the support and encouragement. its really the best thing to be doing this together with you...really appreciate that.